Daily Dose of Misery.

Hi, this is just a reallly incredibly quick post about how my day went. lets just some it up.. crappy. I sdoubt I can ever smile again. seriously. My gradesr are just dropping like a slow water drop. I had a bunch of A's to show for on my mid quarter test, but now, i only have 2 A's if I;m lucky. and 3 D's. god damn freaken DEE! hohw am i supposed to sleep at night with that towering over my head? My biology teacher had like a 40 minutes talk with me today about how I need to catchup. I have a new D in that class. what was an A at the beginning of the quarter is now a D. I have til next week to turn in all my latework for a 7/10 as the highest score i can recieve. Not only that, but I have to have to turn in my biblio for history in order to have a passing D. ( i have an F in that class...) Algebra2, i have to really step it up and stop procrastinating, start working and just not be behind. procrastination sucks. finally, i think thats it. im really just depressed at how unworthy, stupid, not smart, bot good for the world type mood. I just need to get a better grade asap, because this is high school, and college, i just have to get into college. UCLA and stanford or berkely are my dream schools. and with out mch help from my aunt, i just have to get there on my own.this is my goal for the school year. to do good in school. forget about my past life in LA. and to just do good. im tired of trying to live a double life keeping up with everyones lives in LA. i just have to face the reality that I'm here now, and MHS is just my number one priority now. -sigh- so asian. so not me i know. but this is how im going to have to start acting in order to be happy. right now im just miserable. pure and utterly miserable. im not sure if i can even put a "fake" smile anymore. how will you know if a person is truly smiling? look into their eyes, if theyre cold and emothionless, you;ll know its fake. thats it. alright bye now. cross country practice. maybe theyll bring up my day.

pass the kalua.. PIG.

hey bloogerrr!! i have not blogged in such a long time and ive decided to start my daily blogging from now on since im always at the library afterschool, yep thats how im doing it now..

for all you nosy nosy people reading this, my schedule goes as folows.

1) GT English 9
2) Pre AP Modern Hawaiian History
3) GT Biology 9
4) Algebra2
5) Orchestra1
6) Physical Education

*GT meaining Gifted and Talented.

So yea, my thoughts on the classes? theyre torture !! wayy different than middle school, the only class i actually do like is english, and orchestra. The english teacher is cool, and orchestra is just fun and when we sound good, we sound GOOD.


Thoughts on other classes. Class i think is ABSOLUTELY HELL? Pre AP hawaiian history !! its the death of me. so freaken hard and crap. i hate those 50 minutes of class. its the death of me. GT Biology? not as hard, but the teacher annoys the heck outta me. when ever we ask him a question his response: "You guys are supposed to figure it out, you are GT biology now regular" gaahh we make great impressions of him and his brazilian accent but it bugs the heck outta us. uhmm, algebra 2. its not hard, just annoying. you see, people in hawaii are not as smart in the brain as the people in cali and by that i mean, there are freaken seniors and juniors in my classs, dumb much !? the freshmans are barely taking algebra1 and pre alg! i mean for reals, i took that in 7th grade! and even the not too smart are taking geometry this year! and the seniors and juniors attitude just bug the crap outta me. everyday, i bring a stress relief ball and repeat to myself to not throw the large alg2 book at their head. such conceited inconspicuous little female dogs! and finally pe. in middle school, it was all easy, just do good on the 17 minute runs right? over here, were a rich little school and we can afford heart rate monitors for everyone, so we use those. we always have to get 20-30 minutes into our time zone of howmany heart beats you have. like its a watch and strap thing that measures how fast your heart beats and were supposed to get it 130-190 beats per min. freaken hard !!

CLUBS&SPORTS.
to all my little nightingalers, remember how i used to be in eery sport and club at school? thats sorta the same, but sports arent as easy as it seems. i joined cross country... biggest regret. we run 6-10 miles a day! 5 times a week, and if you miss more than one practice a week, youre cut. just yesterday, it was literally poutring and we were running on grass and all these other places. and when were trying our hardest, coach just like lectures, you guys need to put more effort in what you do! and all this other stuff. makes me just want to cry. he gives absoutely NO positive feedback, no smiles, or anything! just his german voice makes me jump. other than that, the rest of the clubs im in are fun. theres a service clubn called the key club, hui malama which is this environmental club, dance club, where we break it down! and student government. i forgot, just recently joined GSA (Gay Straight Aliiance) and the people there are just awesome! most of them are Bi/ Gay but there are a handful of straights! were going to have a mararena or congo line on coming out day and we began planning all these cool activities to do soon! so its a bunch of fun.

FIRST.FEW.DAYS/WEEKS
alright so i came in mililani high as the new kid, who just recently graduated from a little middle school from socali. i had noo friends at all, and ate lunch by myself and wandered around the campus watching social groups walk past me laughing and having a good time. i was really lonely. it wasnt until a few weeks ago that i met one of the coolest, weirdest, most perverted group ever. :) and i love them all . they make me smile everyday and ill post a pic of most of them on myspace later on today. but they are truly awesome, and one of the hilarious people ever. they make me laugh so hard i cry! though i do need to make more freshman friends because most of them are sophmores and juniors.

HOMECOMING.
yep, homecoming is next week! and the masquerade ball ! the first thing i thought was gossip girl! cause of that one episode.. yea. so in one week, i need to find a mask, a dress, and yea! i found my date to go with and we actually bought our ticket together already so yep. so nervous of how its going to be like, first high school dance!

Feeeling tired Lately.

Hello blogger! Sorry if I havent blogged in a MONTH?! yeaa hahah. quite busyand lazy to blog now adays. i did a bunch of drafts so im hoping to publish them after the CSTs are done with. ok. this week has sorta been shitty not really gonna say whyy but, close friends know. today: in science i finally did good on the assesment! i going to promise myself that im going to go to tutoring next week! geo: got free dodger tix, they i like the ANGELS, betch! haha jk. english: we were reading our POV essays, and when ms.chan read mine everyone was like, whoaa wos was that?! ( as it was anonymous) and i was laughing so hard. PE: blehh its so damn hot man! and the other team only had 4 people and aguirre and becky went in playing aganst us! it was a buncha fun playing aginst them, we WON! ahhaa >=D history: pretty weird day, hahah me and kington had our "across the room conversations" just to bug puth x] he always somehow catches us, but doesnt care. afterschool: eh, went to afterschool practice. and played some bball. tomoros not gonna be fun, gonna be sorta loner in every class because of all the field trips! rawr. and CSTS ARE EFFING NEXT WEEK MAN!! IM SCARED FOR GEOMETRY AND HISTORY PART!!! AAAAH. english is the easist and science is medium. why do 8th graders have to take so many?! i miss being a 7th grader :( well anyways thats about it, i hope to get next week done and over with, i have knapp as my testing teacher T___T his voice is VERY annoying im glad i have puth as history :D (even though i hardly learn anything) D: so yeaa ty for reading byee!! (:

Spring Break Recap !

helloo blogger ! today im catching up on bloggin for the week haha. spring break was pretty awesome, but i didnt go to vegas so that was a bummer , but still it was pretty fun (: hmm let me recap. last saturday: mesa finals, i wore red pants ! ahaha. freaken had to wake up at like 5:30 though ! ughh and like we got there so early and we had to wait for people. math competition was pretty hard . and we lost... played duck duck goose, but resulted ina game of tag. and had in n out for lunch ! :D sunday:went to the salon to get a perm it turned out pretty whack. but i made the best of it ! and then hit up costco and target. monday: asdfghj i dont remember anything i did ! rawr. tuesday: went to americana and movies for julies bday celebration ! it was hecka fun (: we saw monsters vs aliens while some other peple watched haunting of conneticut . and walked around . then julie had to go home . but we walked around glendale galleria and didnt shop much. got pinkberry after ! dude its really a rip off compared to yogurtland ! it was a really nice day out . wednesday: went to the doctors to get my last shot ! no more until 10 years yea-yuuh ! lol. thursday : got some bad news that im moving to hawaii :(. so that made me depressed the whole day . friday: went to watch hannah montana moviee ! it was soo cute ! and lucas till was soo hott ! his smile is like aaaah ! had in n out AGAIN ! roflmao. saturdayy: the day ive ben waitin for all week ! it sucked that karmen couldnt make it :[ but vfc asnt there anyways :P . hmm got here like at 4:30 ? walked around a lot and then at likee 6:30 i went to the stage and i saw the oh deemgirls there already doing the hoedown throwdown ! LOL , a lot of people were looking. :P i called up steffy and asked where they were. turned out they took the wrong train and then had to go back to union and reake another train ! but they made it (: then laura came with her sisters (: and we saw v sevani and jared, wesley, and asher from v factory ! at 7 the concert started. the beachgirl5 were awesome! haha they performed 3 songs? yeaa. the crowd was crazzyy! so packed! and then when the mighty were performing we (lizzy, steffy, laura, and i) went to talk with v factory and got bear hugs from welsey! hahah. laura got to talk with jared! and asher was talking with garret jiroux? yeaa. we got some quick hugs from everyone and i was scared of getting pics so i didnt ask Dx. hmm during the rest of the concert, we werent really that interested, we just kept looking around for thomas&drew hahah. then we saw viince! and started talking to him (: he was super nice. and talked to us for a while. hahah we took pics and talked to us again ! we talked for like half an hour! or more? hahah. hes so cute with straight hair ;). then he had to go. :[ and we were just standing there watching the concert, traphic did some rap songs. uhmm and there were 2 other bands but i forgot them xP. this guy from musiconlineworld.com or omething like that came up to laura and asked her if she liked music and she was like o.o suree? then another guy wearing A LOT of bling came up to lizzy and asked her some things and all we heard was no sorry. turns out he was looking for dancers for the LA Lakers! LOL! hahah. yeaa then KIIS FM had a dance offf like they asked people in the crowd to come up on stage. and yeaa there were 2 guys that were REALLY good., one lady like was shaking her but and that was all she did. and we were like x__X she has no talent. the two guys that were really good tied for first! haha. then when it was over, like they were announcing te finalists, we saw mitchel musso! and it seemed like we all saw him at the same time! cause we were like OMGEE! ITS MITCHEL MUSSO at the same time! hahah. by that time, lauras sister came with us. after pics and talking with him (he was pretty nice) the ohdeeem girls hahah they tried to get mitchel to say"oh deem" but he wouldnt ! and we were like aww. after that we walked around with the ohdeem girls and yeaa steffy was snapping pics of signs there (: and lizzy was trying to call someone? hahah. then it was over, i left and people were handing out beachgirl5 pins becuase they made it to the finals!! got home, ate kingtaco bean&cheese burrito xD and yup! that was it! hahah, thanks for reading this super long blog byee!

Trident Gum to the Rescue!

hellooo blogger! (: hahah sorry fr te strange title... i feel funny today. im listening to music, and chewing on *checks* Trident "Tropical Twist" gum. (: i like the taste lalalal. today, my nails are green&blue so im supestoked about them :P today at school, we had pajama day for the first day of spirit week! hhahah, it feels weird wearing pjs to school, but so comfy (: science: ughh i had a nosebleed! and it took the whole period for it to stop, i bled so much and the nurses didnt do anything just to "put the ice on your forehead and apply pressure" ughh, i think i was told to do that over 12 times. yes, i counted :P geometry: hmm we startedlearning about complicated the SSS&SAS theorems. but they were pretty simple, we have a test tomoro on that and indirect proofs! D:. ima epicfaill! nutrition: i saw him (;he was talking to his friends though so i didnt bother :/. english: ughh i really really want to switch to rostons class, we do so many essays in chan's! rawr. music: nothing other than the usual, i forgot my instrument and got a strike, used another one and it plays a lot better than mine! O:lunch: ate some fobby food (rice with yellow brocolli, and karrots) (the brocolli was YELLOW!) we need fresh food! hmm. P.E.: we had esparza as a sub and we practiced setting&bumping, i felt so tired! maybe from the nosebleed... played prisonball. history: did work, quite boring, i wish it was friday so we could listen to our ipods! afterschool: i ran,ran,ran and played bball.

hmm, tomoros crazy hariday, wednesday:crazy hat&glasses day, thursday: formal day. friday: sprts day! i think i might wear shutter shades and a hat for wednesday, wearing my 6th grade culmination dress for thursday! (hope i fit) LOL. and Suns Steve Nash #13 Jersey for friday! i gotta go to the mall tomoro, to buy like the jersey at champs, last time i didnt have enough!

recap of mall trip yesterday: took the 91, too bad 794 wasnt available, it wouldve been a lot easier! though walking in the wind was nice. walked through americana, it was about 12 when we got there so not a lot f people but stilll some. first hit up H&M for edgars formal suit xD its quite expensive there though i must say. a simple black tie was $30! then decided to look around the mall first, to see if there was something cheaper, hit up american eagle next, saw a vest that was black and that went well with his grey shirt from there so the outfit was done! (: it was the same price as the tie too! so we saved money on that :P then went to aero, shirts there are starting to look like fake hco, the beachy theme... anchor bluee was next nothing much there, so after 5 mins of browsing we left. hco, was nice, spring clearance sale! and there was a lady that had a whole babys cart thiny filled with clothes, i thin it was OCTOMOM! lolol jk xD mens wearhouse... ROFLMAO we just walked in, felt akward, looked at the suits. saw it was like $70 for a pair of pants, and walked out. a little too much just to wear for a day. that was mostly it for the galleria, then edgar wanted some food, but then just wanted a drink so got a frozen lemonade from hot dog on a stick :P hmm we walked back out to the americana, saw there was some big musical thingy near the grass area and i was like "Omg, its VFC! hahah as a joke (it was really some kid entertainers dressed in overalls and jean skirts with red hair) hahah ill just keep it short, a lot of other inside jokes made :P went to barnes&nobles, first thing i did was look for a popstar! magazine, but i guess they had every magazine there but that one D:< hahah i was reading GQ, cause robbert pattinson was on the cover :P hes a serious hottie xD then went to the third floor for some starbucks! ordered the usual, venti passion iced tea sweetened and when i got my order i sipped from it and it had like no flavor! so i asked her if she added sugar and she was like " I thought you said unsweetened" I just shook my head and said no i asked for it sweetened and she mixed it. so then we left. then went to forever xxi and bought a cardigan there in a rush so i wouldnt leave edgar outside bored to death or possibly kidnapped (he didnt wan to go in even though i toldhim there was a mens section) :P uhmm, then we were about to go, but i decided since it was still 2 something so we went to old navyy! hmm nothing there, i might buy my luau dress there though! its so pretty (: edgar wanted black pants, but it was too big for him. damn anorexic! xP then we went to borders and i knew there was a popstar mag there! so i looked through it, nothing vfc, except for the pic of DRS, so i didnt buy it went upstairs and i found edgar at a computer searchin for a britney spears CD! ROFLMAO i know! ahahahah. it wasnt in stores, so we left and waited at the bus stop. the 92 just left so like we waited and edgar went to buy something from in n out. then a guy that had a backpack on asked if i had 50 cents he could use for the bus and i said sure and gave him 50 cents i felt nice giving someone in need some money. i hoped i didnt need it later. took the bus, punched edgar about 15 times for punchbuggys xD i love that game because on the way back we passed by a volkswagon dealer :D so yeaa then i went home, super tired and yupp! thanks for reading this super duper long blog! byee! <333>

"That Girl" im ADDICTED to that song (;

dear blog, todayy was uhmm usual? i guess. 1st period: we did the hovercraft thing and i guess it was pretty easy. the fan did all the work :P then saw "stand&deliver" like 5th time watching it? 2nd: hahah kaman&i were talking about pulling some major prank as 8th graders and we thought of the craziest, deadliest, well no really :P, and stupid prank ever! if you wanna know just ask me you will be like :OOO or not lol. homeroom: watched simpsons nutrition: i saw "white tee dude" aah he saw me and like while talking to his friend sorta smiled and waved? aah i stopped breathing. lalalala (: 3rd: we were lik discussing robert frosts poem AGAIN, aah im starting to get sick of analyzing his poems. :/ 4th: we saw Karate Kid original i liked it but ALL the actors had skinny chicken legs. lunch: MESA meeting, blehh. ohh when we were going up te stairs gloria ad some 7th grader were like about to fight, all i saw was they were pulling each others hair and mr. diaz running over there trying to seperate them 5th: PE, was sorta repetitive, volleyball, bump pass and set pass. quite easy since playing beach vollyball in the summer (: 6th: i like that class :D we saw independence day and like puth was smacking people with a rolled up poster paper. only way of defending himself from people stomping on hium xD hmm damali asked me for my waterbottle so she can pour it on him :P but then i was checking my phone myspace and found out about VFC. i cried during class. :'[ afterschool: i went to music, rehearsed and we had a fire drill, me and julie stop, dropped, and rolled. (; ahaha and we practiced the thing for picnic. hmm and that was it ? saw jeanette, celine, and anna? in ct, hahah i was buying cake for my gramas bday <3>thank goodness vfc cleared things up with that blog (:


cant wait for tomoro and the weekend! going to yogurtland tomoro to celebrate jacquelines bday <3>and softball practice, i hope to see white tee dude though i would probably pass out. going to the mall on the weekend, and ordering all the bracelets on saturday! (: stoked about them! bowling on wednesdayy! :D i really hope i dont slip on the lanes! thats it i think byee! <3>

Quite Unusual

hello blogger (: today was a very nice day i have to admit strange but yes nice. well i was dreaming last night and like i fell sleep while rereading twilight and had the weirdest dream ever, if you wanna know just ask (;. but like then at 7:10 i woke up and forgot to set my alarm and was late by like 20 mins! so showered in quite a hurry and combed out my messy hair and gobbled down a whole bowl of cinnamon toast crunch in 2 mins! and ran to the bus stop. to my surprise i was actually early! but my phone only had about 40% battery left and i had to conserve my battery. :[ hmm today in first, we were talking about elements again, and today i focused a lot more in class! like a answered questions and asked some i was proud (: hahah. in geometry, it was the same. that class is getting so easy! hmm homeroom elaine, traci, and i were talking about "scenes" yeaa pretty strange. and steven tran wants better grades! i was pretty shocked when he told us that. 3rd, i liked today (: we traded books, though i wanted house of the scorpion, and we discussed a poem by robert frost i love his poems <3 4th ehh, nothing much, some people were talking about a walkout during 4th, but only the stupid ones at our school actually did it. they all got detenton and only got as far as the administration building. lunch: nothing happened. 5th period: we had to run in the heat today! aah it was so hott and i got cramps :[ but still made 8! :D i was happy. 6th period, puth was trying to "jerk" yeaa i guess its some new dance ? idk. he cant do it :P and like he told us that there were these people that were doing the jerk thingy and like evn an old lady can do it better than him! :O hahah. Afterschool: I went to softball practice, i loved it <33> i saw "white teeshirt dude" ;D yeaa and i was really really happy. he looked at me for like to me what seemed like forever :P and nearly got knocked out by the softball for looking back at him! LOL. aah lalala makes me smile just thinking about that moment (: hmm we played a game, my team won! 12-8 yeaa i really have to improve on my batting though my defense is alright. at home: i got to talk with V todayy!! aah he was on for an unusually long time! like an hour? and we commented back&forth <333 hes so hilarious and i love him. check out my profile, it shows the comments now (; i wish all of them would get in the chat soon though i miss them :[ so yeaa that was my day ill blog tomoro byee!